8:47 p.m.

SHAKE YA ASS! WATCH YOURSELF! SHAKE YA ASS! SHOW ME WHATCHA WORKIN' WITH!

Lazy, crazy, hazy days....actually, not really. Mr. A. was not in French today so M. and I did not do our day-late presentation but wtv...he'd better be there tomorrow seeing as we're not there Thursday.

I'm trying to figure out what the FUCK existentialism is. I mean, I think I have it figured out, but HOLY CRAPFACE, would it hurt a philosopher to use, I don't know, clear language for once? Just once? Would it kill you, fucking Sartre (though you're already dead...I think) to make sense, to write a sentence which, when read, will result in a "Oh, I know exactly what he's talking about" instead of a "I'm not entirely sure that means anything". I hate philosophy. I'm not becoming a philosopher. I'm not going to ever study philosophy ever again. As of this point...right...NOW.

Anyway....school sucks, as usual. Tuesdays are slightly better than Mondays on account of it being the day before Hump Day (as in Wednesday, as in the big hump at the top of the hill of the week, as opposed to the extremely friendly humping...nvm).

M. and I were talking about what makes a person tolerable and intolerable today. That's just a nice way of saying we were talking behind people's back, which I know is an awful thing to do, but it's just harmless catharsis to me. Basically, we agreed that being SUPER ANNOYING is a BAD thing (like this girl in my art class who happens to have my name, which I hate, but is also extremely loud and irritating). Also, having no loyalty is a bad thing, as is being manipulative, scheming, get-out-of-my-way-or-I'll-push-you bitch. On the subject of honesty however, we differed:

M. prefers people who speak their mind, who don't bullshit, who are willing to put in their two cents and contribute to the discussion. She likes to argue with people and thinks this is a sign of honesty. I, on the other hand, will avoid arguments like the plague. I don't like arguing with people and I don't really care to know their opinions unless I ask them. I'm more of a 'agree-to-disagree' kind of person, mostly because I can't stand being in a conversation for more than five or so minutes (unless it jumps from topic to random topic), but also because I CAN'T ARGUE. On paper, all's good because I have time to make it articulate, but when I'm actually talking to people and get caught up in emotion, I end up looking like some freak who keeps saying the same things over and over and OVER. Also, I have a horrible memory so I usually end up contradicting myself and then forgetting what the hell I was talking about in the first place.

So yeah, I'm not much of a people person, which is not a good thing because, dammit, there are so many people in the world, what am I going to do?

If anyone can give me a really dumbed-down definition of existentialism, that would be greatly appreciated. I'd like to know I'm on the right track.

Yours...