11:49 p.m

Feel sick and nauseous and feverish...threw up in my mouth and swallowed it again. Pain in my back...probably all the tension collecting in shoulders...and school starting the day after tomorrow...fan-fucking-tastic.

I'm such a loser...I've become obsessed with Cillian Murphy. I think this really is a sign that we, as human beings, are programmed to be completely taken by beauty. I'm hoping it's gonna fade 'cause I really need to work on my screenplay which is NOT going very well at all, FYI.

Cillian Murphy...the most beautiful human I've ever seen. Sick isn't it?

I'll probably regret typing that later, but right now, I mean it 110%. I don't know if I want to be WITH him or just BE him.

Anyway, those anonymons (new word) in cyber space who happen upon this page, wish me luck on my first week of school.

Obsessingly yours,

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