6:28 p.m

Very, very busy night...I'm going off to Cabaret later. But oh...what heartache have I.

I hate it...HATE IT...when I want something that I can't have. It hurts so much. The idea is that a guy that I really like was in love with a girl that I know and respect and just cannot hate yet I DO SO MUCH RIGHT NOW because she has something and she rejected something that I WANT SO BADLY yet cannot have. It's not fair, but I guess it's mostly my fault anyway.

I wonder why guys don't like me. Maybe it's because I scare them.