5:46 p.m.

I am a loser.

It seems as though everybody in my school has coupled, even the least likely of them. What the hell happened? Why the sudden urge to attract and cling? Where are all the chummy, goofy, single people I know that still swooned over Orlando Bloom not two months ago?

More importantly: Why isn't this happening to me?

My total lack of social life has made me wish that I at least had a reason for not going out, living life, making stories that will be shared with my fellow pensioners when I'm old and gray. See, it wouldn't seem so completely loser-ish if I were, say, trapped inside because my legs were broken or if I were suffering from a terminal illness or...ANYTHING. It's like every teenager I know sees their friends outside of school on a regular basis, whereas whenever I see my friends, it's either a:

1) Fluke.
2) School-project-related occasion
3) Well-planned-weeks-in-advance outing, scheduled so as to not conflict with other (more important) activities.

Sometimes I wish I could re-do high school. I wish I were still fourteen ready to grow and just have fun. Instead, I'm a seventeen-year old nothing who has been stunted and shunted into the confined life of an eight-year old. I doubt any of the people I know spend as much time with their parents as me.

Oh well. At least I can get loads of work done. Lucky me. :(

Yours...

6:09 p.m.

Well, now I know why:

Paranoid 90%

Schizoid 82%

Schizotypal 62%

Antisocial 42%

Borderline 90%

Histrionic 70%

Narcissistic 18%

Avoidant 70%

Dependent 82%

Obsessive-Compulsive 54%

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Yours...

What I did today in no particular order: Woke up, ate breakfast (sandwich), went to school (waste of time), spent lunch hour playing truth or dare (remember that?), talked to D. about movies, came home, ate dinner (Vietnamese stuff), writing in blog, took Personality Disorder test, felt depressed

What I will eventually do: run, study for History exam, watch Alias, sleep