5:44 p.m.

School is such total shite now...I can't fucking stand it. I want to kill everybody!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

Two and half more weeks. That's too much by two and a half weeks.

Yeah, I've had a really cunty piece of shit day. Actually, it was a pretty cunty piece of shit weekend. Prom sucked hairy rabbit balls. Friday was a shit boring attempt at writing a philosophy essay due tomorrow (two and half of six paragraphs done so far!), Saturday I met L. for the first time in person (didn't go well...more on that later), Sunday was as Sundays are and was boring as fucking hell.

Ok, about L. Honestly, he's a nice guy, rather boring, but not an asshole which is always a nice thing. But (and this is the thing that's going to make me sound like an insensitive superficial bitch) he has this birth defect thing. He doesn't have any hands. I knew about it before I met him because M. and K. told me and I was ok with it. And I was waiting there for him, looking for the guy without hands and I saw him and, I dunno, I just freaked. Like, I didn't run away or anything, but I was thinking about it the whole movie. It was mostly "What's the matter with me? Am I freaked out? Does it bother me? Yes, in a way, and no in a way, you know?" To be fair, most of my freaking out had more to do with the fact that I didn't want HIM to think it bothered me moreso than the fact that it bothered me. I was hoping to bring it up casually, but how exactly do you do that?

"Hey, I noticed you don't have any hands. What's that like?"

FUCK, you know? So, then I left and I felt all shitty 'cause I'm such a superficial whore, but I can't help feeling the way I feel. I mean, if you're not used to something, you're not used to something. I'm used to seeing people with hands, that's all I have to say about it. I'm not going to lynch him for it, but GODDAMN IT L.! WOULD IT HAVE KILLED YOU TO BRING IT UP?! I dunno, maybe he's sensitive about it which makes this post even more asstacular.

Fuck! I hate school. I hate people. I can't wait 'til summer when I no longer have to interact with shitters anymore.