11:13 p.m.

I remember a few months ago I'd have these lapses of memory...not just normal being forgetful stuff, like actually not remembering long periods of time. Like not remembering conversations I've had with people, even if said conversation had taken place only a few days or even a few hours before. Like writing down long passages and not remembering when I did it or if I really wrote them, yet it's my handwriting or my writing style or something I would say. Like going a whole day without remembering to eat or to brush my teeth or put on a bra or going a week without taking a shower 'cause I just plain forgot...I remember this one time I was in the bathroom and I realized I had a tampon on and I was thinking: "Am I having my period? How many days has it been? I don't remember putting in this tampon."

I don't know why I'm bringing this up. I just feel really bored and I sometimes wonder if I'm going insane. And then I remember, "but if you're wondering if you're going insane, then you probably aren't." But isn't that just like the oldest trick of denial? Just because you acknowledge it doesn't mean it isn't happening, right? It's weird. Or maybe I'm just weird. And if it turns out to be the latter, I think I'd be ok with that 'cause the normal people in my life are pissing me off. I don't know what I'm doing. Hopefully, none of this will matter sometime in the near future.

Yours...

D.I.F.G.