8:20 p.m.

People always tell me I look grumpy. Or angry. To be fair, I am a lot of the times but not usually when they point it out. Usually, I just have no facial expressions at all, it's just, you know, neutral. I try it out in mirrors and I think "I don't look grumpy. I just...LOOK". But having seen a slew of recent photographs, I realize the problem:

I'm just ugly.

My jaw is too big. My face is too round. I have this weird mole on my nose and cheek. My dimples aren't the cute kind. My eyes are too small and too close together.

Ok, I can live with that. People always call me 'really smart' anyway...even though I'm not. Even though a million + people are smarter than me. I'm just the type of person who's smart, but not too smart, ugly, but not that ugly...you know, the kind of person people ignore easily.

i don't know why i'm typing this. i guess i'm just sort of putting it out there. of course, i could just tell other people around me what i think, but then they'd think i was just saying it because i want people to contradict me. and you know what?

they'd be right.