8:29 p.m

I need to finish A Clockwork Orange by the end of this week or else M. will get my soul. That would really suck.

Fuck. I'm feeling all sad again...no particular reason except that life is really nothing but a cesspool of disappointement and loneliness. But that just might be me being a tad dramatic.

I said 'Hi' to S. today in class and he gave me this really scary, really big, shit-eating grin...it kinda took me off-guard. I feel bad for him 'cause he has so much to do...he seems exhausted, poor guy, despite the maniacal smiling. Job, school, life in general...and he has real courses, not like the stupid English stuff I have.

I got freaked out of my mind the other night...Halloween...because it hit me that October just finished that we are one month closer to graduation...which means we're one month closer to real life and university and rent and taxes and all that crap...fuuuuuuuuuuuck...

Interviewed Mr. S. today for my Opus documentary. Such a funny guy and a great (if slightly disorganized) teacher...you don't get a lot of teachers like Mr. S. who are actually nice and fun and makes you want to think out of the box... not to mention he's a total movie buff, which is super in my eyes...planning on watching Nazi propaganda film tomorrow ... Triumph of the Will by Leni Reifenstahl...

Had a very mind-opening conversation about Reifenstahl, how she was essentially glorifying the Nazis in her movie and how she defended it even way after the end of the war and all the Holocaust stuff leaked out...not to say she's a good person or anything, but THAT is passion...the fact that she stuck by her work even if she knew it was evil...if we all had a passion that was so great that it actually transcended conscience and your sense of good, then everyone would just be happier...of course, without conscience and crap, we'd all probably kill each other, so maybe a bit of common sense should be thrown in there for good measure.

Phone just rang on my desk and I couldn't hear a damn thing...it's the phone, I need to get a new one 'cause this one just doesn't work anymore.

Oh...funny email from SC. A bit of a long read though:

The Science Exam

The following is an actual question given on a University of Washington chemistry mid term. The answer by one student was “so profound” that the professor shared it with colleagues, via the Internet, which is, of course, why we now have the pleasure of enjoying it as well.
Bonus Question: Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs heat)?
Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle’s Law, (gas cools off when it expands and heats up when it is compressed) or some variant. One student, however, wrote the following:

First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know the rate that souls are moving into Hell and the rate they are leaving. I think that we can safely assume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls are leaving.

As for how many souls are entering Hell, let’s look at the different religions that exist in the world today. Some of these religions state that if you are not a member of their religion, you will go to Hell. Since there are more than one of these religions and since people do not belong to more than one religion, we can project that all souls go to Hell. With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in Hell to increase exponentially.

Now, we look at the rate of change of the volume in Hell because Boyle’s Law states that in order for the temperature and pressure in Hell to stay the same, the volume of Hell has to expand proportionately as souls are added.

This gives two possibilities:

1. If Hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter Hell, then the temperature and pressure in Hell will >increase until all Hell breaks loose.

2. If Hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in Hell, then the temperature and pressure will drop until Hell >freezes over.

So which is it? If we accept the postulate given to me by Teresa during my Freshman year, “...that it will be a cold day in Hell before I sleep with you,” and take into account the fact that I still have not succeeded in having sexual relations with her, then #2 cannot be true, and thus I am sure that Hell is exothermic and will not freeze.

The student received the only “A” given

It made ME laugh.

Yours...